On "Just Dealing with it"

It's a rare second post in the same day! Huzzah!

Actually, not huzzah at all...

The warm fuzzies of this morning's post have been replaced by cold frustrations of an un-resolvable issue. And seeing as this blog is supposed to be documenting my feelings, here they are:

I have many issues in my life, but there is one that has been plaguing me for years. It's something that's always bothered me and made me feel guilty about myself and my thoughts. And this isn't even one of those private issues, it's the kind that everyone knows about. Every time they bring it up and I say it isn't resolved yet, I feel even worse. So bad in fact, that if others are around, I'll repress the feelings and joke about it to hide the frustration. But if I'm alone, I instantaneously melt into tears.

The real problem is this: it's actually impossible to resolve. I've looked at it from every angle, sought out inner and outside opinions, and tried everything I could, but it's just one of those things that can't be sorted out in a healthy way.

So what am I left with? Just dealing with it. 'Just dealing with' it is less painful and less trouble than would be caused it I tried to solve the issue. Sadly, 'just dealing with it' doesn't make me feel any better.

How can I hope for happiness when I'm in such a hopeless situation?