On New Starts and New Years

Well, it's a new year, and with the new year has come some pretty big changes in my life.

First of all is my newest companion. I adopted a retired racing greyhound from Greyhound Supporters of the National Capital Region, and brought him home on December 20. I named him Fezzik. This is a double reference: "The Princess Bride" obviously, but also Doctor Who, because fezzes are cool! Ha ha ha! Aside from some housebreaking issues, things are going really well. He's a pretty great dog and as soon as he's housebroken, I think we're going to be the best of buddies!

The second big deal is the start of the egg donation process. I'm donating eggs to a friend who can't conceive himself. So I'm starting off the year with the first step: the psychological assessment, followed by the medical assessment in March, and legal proceedings in between. If all goes according to plans, the surrogate will conceive at the end of summer this year, and nine months later, there will be a mini Leah running around somewhere. :P

Another big change of the year is that I had my last session with Dr. Kaiserman today. I've been seeing him since March of 2012, when I started having anxiety attacks. Even though it was realized fairly early on that I didn't need therapy as such, it did me a great deal of good to have someone to talk to and discuss my fears and frustrations with. It's not that I don't have friends to talk to, but I've always felt that it wasn't my business to unload my problems on friends. I'm hoping that I've learned better now!

I think the biggest change of the year, though, is the BIG MOVE! at the end of January, I'm moving out of my little bachelorette pad into a two-bedroom townhome. It's in the same neighbourhood as I'm in now, which is nice, and I'll even have a little fenced backyard for Fezzik.

So with a new dog and bigger digs, along with a new, healthier attitude to life (cutting the therapist strings!), I'm hoping that the 2013 will be a year for many new new starts and happy times.

A funny side note: I've complained many times in this blog about how long I went without sex. It made me really, really miserable to be so long without physical contact. Well, now that this is no longer the case, I'm suddenly feeling SO much better. It's amazing how something as simple as one single night of intimacy can change one's outlook so much. In the few weeks that have followed, I'm suddenly feeling lighter, less burdened by the weight of my life.

I don't sit and cry about the fact that I'm single, or about why my heart was broken by the last guy I liked, of why the one I currently like doesn't like me back. For the first time since I don't know when, I'm happy to just let life happen, and to trust that it will all work out eventually. I feel like even though I still have things in my life that I'm not completely happy about, that they don't seem so hopeless.

I guess what I'm meaning to say is that 2013 has a lot of promise. I feel good for the first time in a long while. I have a new man in my life (albeit the four-legged furry kind, ha ha!), I'm learning to stand on my own two feet, and be the mistress of my own domain (both physical and emotional).

So here's to 2013! The potential is there, all I have to do is keep the momentum going to make sure that it's a spectacular year! :)